Well, it's been a minute since Ive been on here and a lot has happened. Almost all of it good. My life is humming away in a fabulous fashion still but I think I need to catch up here just so I have a record of it all in the future. Not much new to … Continue reading Monkeys everywhere!
Author: melraines
Taking out the garbage
Ive always grown up believing that you need to surround yourself with as many opposing opinions as possible so that you always have new information available. So that you're always learning. As I get older Im finding I dont think that's true anymore. Some opinions just dont belong in my world. There are situations where … Continue reading Taking out the garbage
So many activities!
This is going to be another one of those all over the map type posts sort of like my brain, trying to manage a lot of plates in the air right now. Hope I dont start dropping them. Had a lovely friend come see me at work, probably the only person who actually checks to … Continue reading So many activities!
“It’ll just be worse for you…”
I had a police officer once tell me that if they interfered it would just be worse for me. Court was yesterday and, at the first site of the dragon all that fear I'd had tiptoeing around him the last two weeks he was in my house came rushing back. I had to beeline for … Continue reading “It’ll just be worse for you…”
Pulling the pin
I got told today that I am not god. I replied, "We'll see."Now for some context it was the dragons mother who told me I was not god after I told her he needs to get locked up because he would not get clean any other way. Her first concern was for his new puppy, … Continue reading Pulling the pin
The tangled webs we weave
Ive been thinking a lot lately about lying, liars and the stories people tell themselves and others. I wonder sometimes if people tell themselves a story enough times if they actually believe it or if they still know it's a lie and just dont acknowledge it. Can you create truth from bullshit? At least in … Continue reading The tangled webs we weave
The recoil and the ricochet
It's weird how quiet the brain gets after all the rage and fear pass. I feel numb to it all now. I think the fear and rage peaked yesterday during court and the police and all of it and now there's just a hole in my soul.Am I still afraid? Probably. Most definitely. At least … Continue reading The recoil and the ricochet
Authentic Self
"I will love myself despite the ease with which I lean towards the opposite."~Shane Koyczan I dont often post twice in one day. I dont really know if I ever have before but here I am, twice in one day. Three if you count the edit. I just spent a fantastic evening with my girls. … Continue reading Authentic Self
Escalation
So I had thought the dragon would fade into the sunset. End of story, end of games. End of bullshit and I could carry on happily with my peaceful and happy life. It appears he’s got no intention of going away quietly and has decided his best course of action is to sick his little … Continue reading Escalation
Life update #713
Hey everyone, it's been a minute! This is quite overdue and a whole lot has changed in the past few months. Firstly I moved. My new house, while in probably the worst part of town, is gorgeous and all windows and so filled with sunshine it's amazing to wake up in. I absolutely love it … Continue reading Life update #713
Heartache, hiccups and hope 