Feels like it's been forever and that lots has happened when really not much has actually changed since my last post. Or rather lots changed and now Im back to where I was when I last posted. If that makes sense. The dragon came and went for his final strike. I dont even remember how … Continue reading Catching up
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Kintsugi
It's crazy to me how much harder it is to get my thoughts out on paper, so to speak, when I feel whole and happy. I wonder why that is? I wonder why that lost, messy, version of me found pouring herself out on paper was so easy or if she will ever even reappear … Continue reading Kintsugi
Duality
And so things continue. I came to a realization today while talking to one of the young girls at work. While I internally feel like quite the mess when Im home alone with just my thoughts, outwardly Im the picture of confidence. I used to think I was faking it. Even so recently as the … Continue reading Duality
Becoming
I am so incredibly proud of myself. I feel like Ive grown so much in the past few weeks it's incredible. Yes, it was all based on a boy but it's how I handled that situation and continue to handle it that has me in awe a little bit. I am so much stronger and … Continue reading Becoming
Societal Debris
Saw a meme today about foster care, a quote from a foster kid that read: "Ive had 23 foster placements which is really a dressed up way to say Ive left everything and everyone 23 times" I was at 34 "placements" before I even reached adulthood. That is the rule not the exception. Nearly 30 … Continue reading Societal Debris
The rule not the exception
Have you ever looked at your friends relationships and thought "I want that"? Not in a jealous way but almost like a longing, like you know you're missing out but you dont have the faintest idea how to get from where you are to where they are? I have so many friends like this. Couples … Continue reading The rule not the exception
The power of will
So Ive never really been one to make new years resolutions persay. I have issues with failing at things and those are always something people inevitably fail at. That being said there were things I decided I would do this year. More of a change of perspective than a resolution. I want to stop even … Continue reading The power of will
Love is just a word between addict and manipulation
I saw a quote today that struck home: "Broken women know how to love but not who to love, broken men know who to love but not how to love" Now if combining those two isnt a recipe for a toxic disaster then I dont know what it. Sadly I think these sorts gravitate towards … Continue reading Love is just a word between addict and manipulation
Legacy
Do you ever wonder how you’ll be remembered? Or if anyone will ever even think of you after you’re gone? What kind of mark you left on this rock spinning through the universe or impact you had on the parasites that infest it. If you had any impact at all. I like to think I … Continue reading Legacy
Shoulda taken the blue pill
I wish I’d taken the blue pill, there’s definitely something to be said about blissful ignorance. Two months ago I was happy. Blissfully so. I thought my life was finally going somewhere. I was out of debt and living with a guy I thought genuinely adored me. I was safe and content and enjoying life … Continue reading Shoulda taken the blue pill
Heartache, hiccups and hope 