Well, it's been a minute since Ive been on here and a lot has happened. Almost all of it good. My life is humming away in a fabulous fashion still but I think I need to catch up here just so I have a record of it all in the future. Not much new to … Continue reading Monkeys everywhere!
Tag: broken child
The tangled webs we weave
Ive been thinking a lot lately about lying, liars and the stories people tell themselves and others. I wonder sometimes if people tell themselves a story enough times if they actually believe it or if they still know it's a lie and just dont acknowledge it. Can you create truth from bullshit? At least in … Continue reading The tangled webs we weave
Authentic Self
"I will love myself despite the ease with which I lean towards the opposite."~Shane Koyczan I dont often post twice in one day. I dont really know if I ever have before but here I am, twice in one day. Three if you count the edit. I just spent a fantastic evening with my girls. … Continue reading Authentic Self
Life update #713
Hey everyone, it's been a minute! This is quite overdue and a whole lot has changed in the past few months. Firstly I moved. My new house, while in probably the worst part of town, is gorgeous and all windows and so filled with sunshine it's amazing to wake up in. I absolutely love it … Continue reading Life update #713
The next step
Ive been scrolling around the reader here reading stories similar to mine, experiences similar to mine, finding a whole host of people as hurt and damaged by a system meant to raise them as I am. A whole host of people outraged and looking for a way to fight back, looking for a way to … Continue reading The next step
A letter to myself
Not so much a letter as a bit of writing I can come back and read over and over again whenever my resolve starts to dip or Im hurting or starting to give in to those thoughts that lead me places I dont want to go. It sounds silly to say out-loud but each night … Continue reading A letter to myself
One stair at a time
I think healing, and overcoming the damage done to my brain and soul, is something of a stair case. An immeasurably long and broken staircase that seems to wind and back track on itself somehow. On each landing is a door leading to some obstacle I have to combat and face. Im getting there. I … Continue reading One stair at a time
Butterfly
It feels like a lot has changed since my last post even though it's only been a few days. The fact that Im talking to the dragon went public and the fallout from that was even more extreme than I expected. I crashed pretty hard as that social circle was torn apart again and sides … Continue reading Butterfly
Fight, Flight or Freeze
According to all the literature there are three basic responses to trauma, all of which remain responses until they're trained out of you. If you believe in the NARM and think you can retrain yourself. If you follow the Dr's that subscribe to the brain damage models I suppose you're screwed. I choose to believe … Continue reading Fight, Flight or Freeze
Humpty Dumpty
I watched a documentary the other day about broken children. I think it was actually called "Broken Child" and it's gotten me thinking, stewing really, as I tend to do whenever I cant figure something out. Why arent I much more screwed up than I actually am? Or at least than I appear to be? … Continue reading Humpty Dumpty
Heartache, hiccups and hope 