This is going to be another one of those all over the map type posts sort of like my brain, trying to manage a lot of plates in the air right now. Hope I dont start dropping them. Had a lovely friend come see me at work, probably the only person who actually checks to … Continue reading So many activities!
I had a police officer once tell me that if they interfered it would just be worse for me. Court was yesterday and, at the first site of the dragon all that fear I'd had tiptoeing around him the last two weeks he was in my house came rushing back. I had to beeline for … Continue reading “It’ll just be worse for you…”
I got told today that I am not god. I replied, "We'll see."Now for some context it was the dragons mother who told me I was not god after I told her he needs to get locked up because he would not get clean any other way. Her first concern was for his new puppy, … Continue reading Pulling the pin
Ive been thinking a lot lately about lying, liars and the stories people tell themselves and others. I wonder sometimes if people tell themselves a story enough times if they actually believe it or if they still know it's a lie and just dont acknowledge it. Can you create truth from bullshit? At least in … Continue reading The tangled webs we weave
It's weird how quiet the brain gets after all the rage and fear pass. I feel numb to it all now. I think the fear and rage peaked yesterday during court and the police and all of it and now there's just a hole in my soul.Am I still afraid? Probably. Most definitely. At least … Continue reading The recoil and the ricochet
"I will love myself despite the ease with which I lean towards the opposite."~Shane Koyczan I dont often post twice in one day. I dont really know if I ever have before but here I am, twice in one day. Three if you count the edit. I just spent a fantastic evening with my girls. … Continue reading Authentic Self
Hey everyone, it's been a minute! This is quite overdue and a whole lot has changed in the past few months. Firstly I moved. My new house, while in probably the worst part of town, is gorgeous and all windows and so filled with sunshine it's amazing to wake up in. I absolutely love it … Continue reading Life update #713
♪♪ Let's talk about sex, Baby. Let's talk about you and meLet's talk about all the good things and the bad things that may be♪♪ Haha I bet that got your attention. Anyhow I seriously want to cover this because it's something that comes up in conversation whenever I bring up my abuse history. It's … Continue reading BDSM and baggage
Here we go again, starting like I think every single one of these things does...with a whole lot of self reflection coupled with a bit of an update. I dont honestly even remember where I left off. Was it before my bday or after? I feel like it might have been before as I know … Continue reading Maybe it’s me?
I think life, and society, operates on some sort of a pendulum; swinging constantly from one extreme to the other. I think we're on a swing back to the patriarchy and I dont like it. It's taken me a good while to try to compose my thoughts on this because, like everything even a little … Continue reading Metoo, Mentoo and the Mob